My xxxxxxx
Please be not silent! If you do not want to help me - simply
tell it. But do not torment my heart by senseless expectation. I strong
lady and probable I is ready to any your answer. Even with tears on eyes I
am ready to hear your answer. But only be not silent! I knew that I should
rely only on myself. I really expected to make all. But I could not find
all sum and I have addressed to you. I have got used to live without any
help. But there are moments when I really need help. It is not
surprisingly. I the person. I am lady. I never asked anybody to help me; I
always did all what in my forces and never complained of my distress.
Pride did not allow me. But I am not omnipotent. I have overcome myself
and have addressed to you for the help. I am not God and not all in this
world depends on me. And if I ask the help, it only because I really need
in help. And for the sake of these several days with you I have given to
hands of destiny everything what I had. I have given everything, what I
had - for the sake of you. Only for the sake of a meeting. Forgive me. If
I could do without your help, I would not began to ask you. I really want
to meet you because all what I say, all words that I said you - always in
all sincerity. Because my feelings is sincere. Because I have opened to
you soul because I have told to you about my feelings and about my desire
to meet you. I did not waste the words. I have made all to prove to you
that my words - words of my heart. For me it was incredibly difficult to
address to you for the help. So please, be respectful at least to this
fact. Write all what you think, but be not silent. Probably I have
offended you. Though I do not understand how lady who need help can offend
a man. Anyhow, if I have offended you by that that I have addressed to you
for the help, forgive me magnanimously. But before I will understand that
you any more do not wish to know me, I would like to receive from you even
some words. If you want, I can explain all reasons that force me to address to you.
But now you are silent. And for me it is even worse than refusal. I cannot
believe that you have thrown me. If it is the end, please, know, that I was a
happiest lady all this time. You have made me the happiest woman on the Earth!
And you will always live in my heart. Please, be not hidden. Write some words.
I will respect any your decision. But only be not silent.
Your Irina.